Volume 3 Chapter 17 The Reason For The Notes
Edited by: Kanaa-senpai
”Hey Risa-san, about that letter…”
Once the busy airplane settled down after takeoff, I asked what had been bothering me, trying not to sound too harsh.
If I said what I really felt, it would show how obsessed I was with Risa-san.
Honestly, I wanted to blame Risa-san for leaving me behind in that big space without telling me where she was going, but I kept that to myself.
”Ugh, I’m sorry. That letter must be confusing, right? I thought I’d let you know when things were officially decided. Even if I say it’s okay because of the hospital director’s connections, if the interview doesn’t go well, I’ll have to come back to Japan.”
I understood Risa-san’s feelings about not wanting to look bad, and it matched what Yuki-san and the others said, so I could accept it.
But still, she could have just texted me like usual instead of doing something so impulsive. Putting the note in such a hard-to-find place by the bed made me suspicious.
It felt like she didn’t want me to notice it right away. I had a feeling there was more to it.
”Anyway, Shuu! What about school?”
”I’m taking a break.”
”What?!”
”Since the regular exams are over, there won’t be any tests until March, so I can almost graduate. Once Risa-san decides where she’s going to live, I plan to come back to Japan for a bit.”
Risa-san pressed her hands to her forehead and said, “Ugh, this is my fault, right?” I was the one who decided to follow her, but it was definitely Risa-san’s fault for trying to wrap things up with just that note.
”What about job hunting?”
”…You don’t need to worry about that.”
It’s a short time. Whether I go to America or not, I don’t think it will affect my job search, which is already tough.
”Risa-san, about that letter. Why did you put it in such a weird place instead of on the living room table or the kitchen counter?”
I showed her the note as I asked.
”Uh…”
”I only notice it when I’m going to bed.”
”But, but! You noticed it right away, didn’t you?”
Risa-san was being stubborn. Was it that hard for her to tell me? Maybe I should just wait for her to talk about it instead of pushing her.
But given the situation, which reminded me of that “almost one-night stand” date, I wasn’t going to just wait.
”You disappeared with the suitcase you were packing. I searched the whole room for clues. So, why did you put it in a place where I wouldn’t notice right away?”
”……”
I asked the same question again, but Risa-san didn’t answer. In fact, she looked blank and didn’t react. It seemed like she realized I had a feeling about why she wrote the letter.
”Okay, I’ll stop being indirect. Why do you want to push me away all of a sudden? Is there someone else you like?”
Chasing her down to ask that question felt crazy.
Even if I wondered about it, if I just ignored it and pretended not to notice, I wouldn’t have to feel this way. But I couldn’t be that oblivious.
Dark feelings were building up inside me, sinking deeper and deeper, and I knew it would lead to self-harm. I had a tough personality that made me hurt myself no matter what.
”I don’t like anyone else! I only like you, Shuu… but I can’t say it!”
”What do you mean you can’t say it?”
”Ugh… If I say it, you’ll probably… leave me.”
What was that? Was it such a serious secret? Did she have some weird hobby or something more impactful than just a bad taste?
Seeing Risa-san hesitate made me jump to all sorts of conclusions.
”It’s okay. I won’t leave.”
”Really? …And you won’t get mad?”
She kept asking, so I nodded and said, “Okay, I won’t get mad.”
”…I’m pregnant.”
Risa-san said it quickly in a small voice.
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Edited by Kanaa-senpai.
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