Volume 13 Chapter 59 Shirogane Yui, Reunion
Edited by: Kanaa-senpai
Behind the scenes of the summit, there is an exchange meeting happening with people from various countries who work in professions related to men. I participated in this meeting as the designated sp*rm extractor for Aa-sama… I mean, as the person in charge of milking duties.
Unlike the summit where countries are cautiously feeling each other out, no, where they are constantly being toyed with by the mischievous Prime Minister Habu, this meeting is harmonious without any racial or national barriers. Instead, it is filled with camaraderie among like-minded individuals.
We had a snack party together earlier, had a pajama party last night where we played pillow fights, talked about our favorite boys before going to bed, and as the host country, we had a very fruitful social gathering.
”Now, let’s compare the data on sp*rm extraction from each country.”
As they looked at the data displayed on the big screen, surprised voices could be heard from various countries.
Some even took off their glasses, stood up, and stared at the screen in disbelief.
”What’s going on?”
”What happened in Japan!?”
”The annual sp*rm donation count is at an all-time high!?”
”Oh… no way”
”Look closely. It’s not just the sp*rm donation numbers. The number of women who were used as material during milking (f*p material) is also at its highest”
”Oh my gosh!”
”This improvement in the male-female ratio is expected to improve the quality of life for women as well, isn’t it?”
”C’est si bon!”
The female host let out a big sigh with a troubled expression.
”This data is just one person raising the numbers. Here are the data without that person.”
As Japan’s data replaced Aa-sama’s, there was a sudden mix of sighs and gasps.
”Ugh, is he really that special…!”
”No, look closely. The graph may not look as good, but Japan’s numbers still indicate the highest in the world!”
”Indeed, s*xual intercourse between men and women, as well as between married couples, has been increasing steadily from December to March, reaching an all-time high.”
”How enviable… I mean, there is room for detailed analysis and understanding in this.”
”Chief Amakusa Shikimi of Japan, could you please explain this data to us if you don’t mind?”
Former boss of mine, Chief Amakusa, stands before everyone.
Chief Amakusa, who was planning to retire and pass on the Amakusa family to Tenga-san after getting married, had to abandon those plans due to the dissolution of the aristocracy following Kukuri-sama’s declaration.
”Now, I will distribute the new educational ero material for men… I mean, the textbook for male-oriented s*x education adopted in our country.”
Did she almost say ‘erotic book’ just now?
Chief Amakusa, who was met with disapproving looks from everyone, blushed and averted her eyes, pretending not to notice.
”What is this!?”
”Shirogane Aqua’s Fetish Encyclopedia!?”
”Aqua, the Pro Mas***bator’s Guide to the Ideal Mas***bation Techniques!?”
”If something like this gets out, aroused women will start partying!”
”Ugh… you have to give me that on the first day!”
”No, no, if they gave it to you on the first day, you wouldn’t care about other meetings anymore, so it’s better to have it at the end, right?”
”Hey, everyone! Check out page 801!”
”What’s a ‘otokonoko (male girl)’…?”
”This is something. I think we need to take it back and study it in detail at the S*x Education Society!!”
Aa-sama’s written erotic book… I mean, s*x education textbook has been well received by people around the world, and it makes me proud too.
’Thank you. Thanks to Yui, I made great progress in writing the pages on ‘paizuri’ and ‘hyottoko fellatio’.’
’Uh, thanks to me?’
’Yeah, I wrote it while remembering the play with Yui, but… was it bad?’
’That… I’m really happy that playing with someone like me was helpful.’
’Yui, thanks. By the way, when I was writing while remembering our play, my lower body reacted like this…’
’Oh, poor Aa-sama, getting so swollen like this. It must be tough, right? If you’re okay with me, could you bestow me with your essence?’
’Of course, Yui! Leave it to me!’
Saying that, Aa-sama covered me, and that night, I received a lot of kindness.
Ahh, even now, remembering that wonderful Aa-sama from that night makes my heart flutter.
The usually cool Aa-sama, when he gets absorbed in my body and his face shows a boyish cuteness with each thump, thump, it’s really adorable. Even when talking with the older group, I always get excited about that story.
”When we distributed this textbook to men, we saw a dramatic improvement as seen in the data. Particularly, when prominent men like Shirogane Aqua-shi openly shared details about his lower body situation, it seems that Japanese men felt like ‘less embarrassed about matters related to s*x,’ or ‘thought it’s okay for men to talk about s*xual topics with each other,’ or ‘thanks to Aqua-oneesama, I was able to understand my true s*xual preferences,’ according to reports. Even our country’s s*men extractors have mentioned it. Recently, it’s been heard that men are engaging in slightly risque conversations among themselves, openly expressing their s*xual desires and preferred activities to women without feeling embarrassed.”
The audience trembled at Chief Amakusa’s words.
”What is this…”
”Our country has been progressing towards herbivorousness, this might lead to a revolution.”
”Shouldn’t we consider seeking cooperation for recording from an academic perspective such as anthropology and biology regarding men’s risque conversations?”
”Requests for plays that boys want to do… Uh oh, this is bad. My pants are getting wet.”
”Hey, the restroom is over there. Several people couldn’t hold it anymore and rushed in.”
”Everyone is getting excited and missing the obvious, but what is Aqua-oneesama…?”
Excited participants stand up and engage in heated discussions about what is written in the book.
As a Aa-sama’s milking officer, I too received many questions.
As the meeting room heats up, suddenly an alarm sounds.
”What’s going on?”
”What happened!?”
We look at each other with puzzled expressions.
Several women rush in.
”An unidentified fighter jet is heading towards us! Run to the shelter immediately!!”
I am shocked by this unexpected event.
What on earth is happening?
”Come on, hurry over here!!”
I try to follow the guidance of the staff to evacuate from the venue.
”Are you Shirogane Yui-san!?”
”Y-yes.”
”Shirogane Aqua-san, who got injured, has already evacuated to another shelter. Come on, I’ll guide you, hurry over here!”
”Y-yes!”
Aa-sama got injured…?
Feeling flustered, I distanced myself from everyone and followed another guide.
”Over here. Hurry!!”
Was it because I’m used to seeing Aa-sama acting normal?
’If something happens, should I tell Aqua to evacuate? No way, no way, the moment you try to talk to him, he’ll dash to the front lines at full speed. Give up. He’s that kind of person. You fell for that kind of guy. Seriously, something’s wrong with you. Cheers to your lack of judgment, just like me!’
I recalled the words of Kohina Yukari-san, who got drunk and incoherent when we drank with the older group.
I stopped and took out my smartphone from my bag.
”Hurry! Please hurry!”
”Excuse me. Please let me contact someone who seems to be able to reach the person in question.”
As I open the call history, I try to tap on Aa-sama’s phone number.
”Oh boy, can’t you even handle such a simple task? That’s why women are only valuable for opening their legs to men.”
A man I recognize appears in front of me.
He’s probably Barnes, the diplomat from the States. Why is he here?
”E-excuse me. Right now…”
”Fine. You’re fired.”
Barnes, the diplomat, pushes her aside expressionlessly.
I rush over to the woman who was pushed.
”Are you okay?”
”Oh, thank you.”
The woman who was pushed has a large bruise on her leg.
Why would someone do something so cruel…
I become more wary of Barnes, the diplomat.
”Now, Yui. Come over here. You’re a woman of value. Let me make good use of you.”
I glare sharply at Barnes, the diplomat.
I was extremely angry at being called by my first name by a man other than Aa-sama.
”As a Japanese person, I have no reason to listen to what you, an American, say! Besides, I wouldn’t go to someone who treats women badly!”
In response to my words, Diplomat Barnes spread his hands in a gesture of disbelief.
”I heard that Japan has the same patriarchal system as the United States, is that not true? Well… it might be fine in Japan, but since you are coming to the States, you must follow the rules of the States. You should unconditionally obey the words of your real father, me!”
Huh…?
I froze, unable to grasp the meaning of what Diplomat Barnes was saying.
Could it be that my translation is wrong?
”It seems like you don’t understand. My name is Jay H. Barnes. The States is a country ruled by immigrants from Stars, not just the original States. In the States without nobility, you can’t use a noble name as a middle name. So, I took it from my own middle name. Yes, my real name is Jay Heliodor Barnes. The owner of the sp*rm your mother bought from an illegal dealer.”
When I was told that the man in front of me was my real father, my thoughts completely stopped.
”Have you ever wanted to monopolize Shirogane Aqua?”
”Me, monopolize Aa-sama…?”
”Yes. I’m asking if you’ve ever thought about being the only one to monopolize Shirogane Aqua without having to worry about Kanon Stars Goshenite and the other wives.”
…It’s not like I never thought about it.
Every woman has thought at least once about what it would be like if Aa-sama only had eyes for her.
”Hey, take my hand, Yui. If you listen to me, I’ll make Shirogane Aqua yours alone. After all, you and the other girls don’t care about anything else as long as you have his body, right? If you want, as your father, I can show you special favor. Hahaha, am I such a kind father to reach out to a girl like you, who has the body of a careless female?”
I push away my father… no, Diplomat Barnes’ hand.
”…Don’t make fun of me!”
”What?”
I slowly stand up and glare at the man in front of me.
”Even someone like me, Aa-sama said I’m wonderful! And… I won’t allow you to insult the other wives, my irreplaceable friends!”
Just the physical aspect? Indeed, the affair with Aa-sama is truly exquisite.
But that’s not the reason why we came to like Aa-sama.
”Everyone got married because they wanted to support Aa-sama, knowing both his cool and uncool sides. Don’t make fun of me… or anyone else!”
The man in front of me showed irritation for the first time.
”Sigh… really, are you stubborn like me? By the way, you… hesitating to have his child, huh?”
”What!?”
How does this man know about that?
It’s not a secret, and I even talked about it with my former colleagues from the extraction department, but they should keep their mouths shut.
Could it be that someone overheard our conversation? I heard that the States’ intelligence agents are excellent, but to know about this…
”You’re worried that by having his child, you’ll become like your mother or grandmother, right?”
I couldn’t respond to his words.
Seeing that, he raised the corners of his mouth and smirked arrogantly.
”You might think I’m a terrible guy, but half of the blood flowing in your body belongs to me. I only see women as tools. I don’t have any feelings towards children. Do you understand that you have the genes of the worst man? And the other half of the genes, for whatever reason, are from the woman who abused you. Listen, Yui. Don’t think a woman like you can be happy. You, born from the mix of the worst genes, can’t possibly show normal affection. You surely haven’t forgotten what you’ve been through with your mother and grandmother, have you?”
I collapse on the spot.
AAAAAAAAAAH!
I’ve been trying not to think about it.
Am I even worthy of being by Aa-sama’s side?
Maybe one day I’ll become jealous and end up hurting someone.
I might end up saying terrible things to my children…
Sealed memories from the past resurface, flashing back to what my mother did to me.
Even though I should have long forgotten, why…
”Yui, come to me when you understand. Free yourself more from your desires. I will release the real you.”
Diplomat Barnes smiles and reaches out his hand towards me.
I… I…
”Please wait.”
I turn around at a familiar voice.
”You… Kokucho Agewa. Why are you here?”
Kokucho Agewa-san in a suit appears behind me.
”Oh… Have you forgotten that I have been a Congress for years? Even with a few months of blank memory, don’t underestimate me, who has been dealing with that foolish Habu Prime Minister for years.”
Kokucho Agewa-san slowly approaches us and stops as if protecting me.
That dignified figure from behind reminds me of her active days.
”Diplomat Barnes, can I ask you something?”
”…What is it?”
Kokucho Agewa-san, glaring at Barnes, clenched her fist tightly.
”Are you saying if a parent has bad genes, then the child’s genes are bad too? That’s ridiculous!! Parents are parents! Children are children! Aqua-kun told me that I don’t need to bear the sins of my parents! Even if the Kokucho family was like that, it’s different for Agewa-san!! Let me tell you as a fellow parent. Parents who can’t love their children have no right to call themselves parents, even if they share genetic ties! You, who have never faced the struggles of raising a child, have no right to speak so arrogantly as an outsider!!”
The usually calm Kokucho Agewa-san raised her voice unusually and pointed her index finger in front of Barnes, the diplomat.
Diplomat Barnes seemed taken aback by Agewa-san’s forcefulness and unconsciously took a step back.
”Cheeky…! Darn it, what’s up with the education of women in this country! It’s only natural for children to listen to their parents!”
”Natural? Those are some harsh words.”
From behind diplomat Barnes, the sound of heels clicking could be heard.
The woman who appeared more elegantly than anyone else flipped her skirt and spread a fan to cover her mouth.
”That’s why I dislike men from the States.”
”…Victoria Stars Goshenite. Why are you here!?”
As Victoria-sama walked past Diplomat Barnes and stopped in front of me, standing next to Agewa-san.
”Same old on the left. I can see through what the States are thinking. I knew it would be something like this anyway. Well, I didn’t expect my thoughts to align with hers, though.”
Victoria-sama winked at Agewa-san.
I felt more rounded than when I was the princess of Stars.
”Just now, you mentioned that it’s natural for children to listen to their parents… but in the end, I became distant from my sister, unable to say anything to my foolish mother who tried to marry off my precious sister against her will, and had everything important taken away by a certain awful man, including my precious sisters, grandmother, country, and even the national flag. Should you listen to my pitiful story who was left behind?”
In response to Victoria-sama’s joke, Agewa-san unexpectedly bursts out laughing.
”Hehe, not everything is a joke. Half of it is serious. So, we must make sure that man takes responsibility later.”
Oh, Aa-sama, run away… While trembling at Victoria-sama’s smile, I mutter these words in my heart.”
”I still regret it. If I had just gone against what my dear mother said even a little bit. Then, maybe Kanon could have had a happier ending, a wedding where everyone celebrated without any worries.”
The wedding of Aa-sama and Kanon-san was pure happiness.
But… considering the rift with her mother that arose from that, and the estrangement from her homeland that came with such an ending, maybe not everything went well after all.
For Kanon-san, and for Victoria-sama too…
”But then, that man appeared before me again and said this. ‘Meet your sister and talk to her directly.’ Can he really turn even a bad end into a happy one? What a joke of a man.”
When Victoria-sama looks back at me, she shows a gentle smile.
Oh, I see. Despite our different positions, Victoria-sama is just like me. That’s why she…
”Alright, stop sitting on the ground and stand up already. You also asked that guy for help like us, right? If so, there’s only one action you should take. Do you understand?”
”This time, we are the ones who should protect what Aqua-kun cherishes. So, Yui-san will never be handed over to someone like you!”
Agewa-san and Victoria-sama turn to face Diplomat Barnes in front of them, glaring at him.
”Hah! What’s so special about Shirogane Aqua? He’s just a guy, no different from me.”
””No, he’s not!!””
Victoria-sama and Agewa-san’s words cut off the voice of Diplomat Barnes.
I put strength into my hands and tried to stand up on my own.
”That’s right. Stand up and tell him!”
I return a smile to the two who pushed my back and my friends who have also fallen for the same man.
”The man you truly believed in and loved”
”The man we entrusted our future to and loved”
””That guy who only brings misery to women!!””
I take one step, then another, moving forward.
”No matter what you say, my answer won’t change. I want to make all women happy. I believe in Aa-sama who said that, and I want to support him… So I won’t follow the words of someone who made both my mother and me unhappy!!”
”You’re so cheeky for a woman!”
I get slapped on the cheek by the enraged Diplomat Barnes.
”Yui-san!”
”Yui!”
Agewa-san and Victoria-sama quickly rush to me.
”All these people, these women are getting too full of themselves! Is this Shirogane Aqua guy giving proper education to his woman!? Let me tell you, the men of States are different from the weak men in your country!! I’ll make you realize that with my fists!!”
The fist of Diplomat Barnes is coming towards us.
Oh no, this is bad. We’re going to get hit. Everyone braces for the pain, gritting their teeth and closing their eyes.
”Huh?”
The irritated voice of Barnes, the diplomat, and the sound of a punch hitting someone made us slowly open our eyes.
It seems that a man who stood between him and us took the punch on his own face.
”Ku… Kujaku-kun?”
Why is Kokuchō Kujaku-san here?
I remember he was supposed to accompany us as a backup dancer for the concert…
”…The concert venue and the city are already in chaos. Can you hear it, this sound?”
If I listen carefully, I can hear the sounds of fighter jets flying, impacts, and explosions.
”I came here because I was worried about Agewa, and he asked me to greet you on his behalf.”
Kujaku-san glares at Barnes, the diplomat.
”Hey, you… You tried to hit Agewa, my mother!!”
”Kujaku-kun…”
Agewa-san seemed happy to be called a mother, tears welled up in the corners of his eyes.
Diplomat Barnes burst into laughter at Kujaku-san’s words.
”Hahaha! So, what’s the matter? If you’re son, make sure your mother listens to you even if you have to hit her! That’s how I’ve been educating women like mothers!”
”I might have been a tough kid for Agewa. But I never raised a hand. I, we are different from the likes of you!!”
Perhaps irritated by Kujaku-san’s words, Diplomat Barnes raised his fist again.
Suddenly, a man tackled him from behind.
”Kujaku! You’re quick on your feet!!”
”Maruo, perfect timing!”
Without hesitation, Kujaku-san also tackled Diplomat Barnes, spreading his arms wide towards his abdomen.
The two tried to wrestle Diplomat Barnes to the ground.
”Argh, annoying! Let go!!”
Despite being hit multiple times by them, the two never let go Diplomat Barnes.
”We should help them.”
”Yeah!”
”Let’s go!”
Agewa-san, Victoria-sama, and I, despite being weak, tried to help the two of them.
However, Diplomat Barnes used centrifugal force to throw the two towards us.
We immediately ran towards them and stood in front of them to protect them.
”Sigh… Seriously. This guy called Shirogane Aqua is not a decent man. Is this country trying to handle not only women but also men somehow?”
Diplomat Barnes took off his jacket and loosened his tie.
At that moment, someone else rushed over.
”Yui!”
”Oh, Chief Amakusa!”
It seems Chief Amakusa noticed that I hadn’t evacuated to the same place and had been looking for me.
”What’s going on here? Diplomat Barnes, depending on the situation…”
”Jeez, everyone is so annoying! Fine, I’ll teach these cheeky kids a lesson as a model father.”
Diplomat Barnes raised his fist again and aimed it at the approaching Chief Amakusa.
Before his fist could connect, it was caught by a man who intervened from the side.
”Hey, do you even know who you’re trying to hit?”
”Rihito-kun!”
Kuga Rihito, a special secretary directly under Prime Minister Habu and known as Chief Amakusa’s husband, the head of the old aristocratic Kuga family and the brother of Kuga Reira… Wasn’t he supposed to be at the summit?
”It seems it was the right decision for me to come here worried about Shikimi.”
With a firm grip, Rihito-san forcefully threw Diplomat Barnes in the opposite direction of where we were standing.
”Seriously, one annoyance after another!”
”This is our line. Are you aiming for the access code to the storage facility where Shirogane Yui’s Shirogane Aqua s*men is kept? It’s a shame, but it’s impossible for you to reach there. Did you think Prime Minister Habu didn’t make arrangements there?”
The Hogewave Institute is just a fake.
In the underground of that institute, all the s*men received from Aa-sama is stored.
”Now, Diplomat Barnes, I believe you understand this is a diplomatic issue. I’ll have to detain you. However, it’s your freedom to resist, right? Your country loves the word ‘freedom’ more than anything, doesn’t it?”
”Darn it!”
When Kuga Rihito-san removes his outer garment and adopts a boxing-like stance, he lands a counterpunch on Diplomat Barnes.
”No away! Aren’t the men in this country weak?”
”Weak? Look around. Where do you see weak men in front of you?”
Kuga Rihito-san looks at Kokuchō Kujaku-san and Yamada Maruo-san.
”What’s weak about them fighting like this to protect their mother, their friends, and the one they love by throwing themselves into battle?”
We nod in agreement with Kuga Rihito-san’s words.
”Shut up, be quiet!!”
Kuga Rihito-san dodges all of Barnes’ attacks and then pummels him.
”I remember hearing a story about Aqua trying to protect his teacher once. He said he didn’t want to touch the hand that had just hit his teacher. As a fellow man, I thought that was cool.”
I’ve heard that story too. I was moved by the kindness of Aqua-sama that I caught a glimpse of.
The enraged Diplomat Barnes gets up for the third time and charges at Kuga Rihito-san in a fit of rage.
”Damn it all!”
”But, sorry. I’m not as kind as he is.”
Kuga Rihito-san delivers a beautiful roundhouse kick to the jaw of the approaching Diplomat Barnes.
It was a scene that seemed familiar from somewhere.
”Too bad. There’s no way I, who is always forced to spar with the real Heaven’s Sword and engage in unrestricted sparring, could be weak, right?”
I see…
If he’s sparring with Aa-sama, it’s understandable that he’s strong.
Even Kaede-san, who was said to be the strongest primate, was pondering with rare use of her brain while replenishing her sugar with a banana, saying she couldn’t beat Aqua-kun with just brute strength.
”Damn it!”
Diplomat Barnes, lying on his back, shouts with a hazy consciousness.
”Hey, you woman! Call in reinforcements and deal with that guy somehow! I’ll reward you later!!”
The woman who was kicked away by Diplomat Barnes trembles with her small body.
I slowly stood up and headed towards that person.
”Hey… Are you happy?”
”Huh…?”
I knelt down in front of the woman and gently held her trembling hands in both of mine.
”I am very happy. Hey… want me to tell you how to be happy?”
”Y-yes…”
I smiled and glanced briefly at Diplomat Barnes lying on his back.
”You should dump crappy guys. So, what kind of boy do you really like?”
”The boy I really like…”
”Hey! Don’t be swayed by that woman’s words!! Listen to me!!”
The girl, holding a cell phone, slowly stood up and stood in front of diplomat Barnes.
”W-what I really like is… a kind person who doesn’t raise a hand against girls! Not someone like you!!”
The girl lifted her leg and brought her heel down on diplomat Barnes’ important area… his groin.
”AAAAHHHHH!”
Oh no…
When Kuga Rihito-san, Kokuchō Kujaku-san, and Yamada Maruo-san saw that, the three of them unconsciously guarded their crotches with both hands.
”Kujaku… I definitely try to be kind to girls.”
”Hmph, Maruo. It’s rare for me to agree on something again. I’ll do the same.”
Kuga Rihito-san nodded silently at the serious conversation between the two.
”Now, everyone, stand up. It’s dangerous to stay here any longer. Let’s move to the shelter for now!”
”Y-yes!”
Everyone stood up at Kuga Rihito-san’s command.
I really wanted to rush to Aa-sama’s side right away, but I would just be a hindrance if I went.
Aa-sama, please be safe…!
While praying for Aa-sama’s safety in my heart, I ran towards the shelter with everyone.
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seems like Kohina Yukari understands Aqua the most lol
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Hmmm. Honestly? Yui’s breakdown was pretty weak and how fast she recovered was awkward. All I felt was meh and move on. The other men interfering and fighting was the best part of this chapter.
I think Yui is the weakest as a character tbh. Might be because she only has a few appearance aside from the Breast Speech arc. So I don’t find her that interesting.
I really hope she gets something more than the extraction officer role because that is the only thing I associate her as.
Hmmm. Honestly? Yui’s breakdown was pretty weak and how fast she recovered was awkward. All I felt was meh and move on. The other men interfering and fighting was the best part of this chapter.
I think Yui is the weakest as a character tbh. Might be because she only has a few appearance aside from the Breast Speech arc. So I don’t find her that interesting.
I really hope she gets something more than the extraction officer role because that is the only thing I associate her as.
Hmmm. Honestly? Yui’s breakdown was pretty weak and how fast she recovered was awkward. All I felt was meh and move on. The other men interfering and fighting was the best part of this chapter.
I think Yui is the weakest as a character tbh. Might be because she only has a few appearance aside from the Breast Speech arc. So I don’t find her that interesting.
I really hope she gets something more than the extraction officer role because that is the only thing I associate her as.
Hmmm. Honestly? Yui’s breakdown was pretty weak and how fast she recovered was awkward. All I felt was meh and move on. The other men interfering and fighting was the best part of this chapter.
I think Yui is the weakest as a character tbh. Might be because she only has a few appearance aside from the Breast Speech arc. So I don’t find her that interesting.
I really hope she gets something more than the extraction officer role because that is the only thing I associate her as.